Well I suppose everything starts from the beginning doesn't it because something can't come from nothing but then again who's to say any thing even exists yet I can't even remember my beginning but I do remember various things from my childhood I would choose if I could not to remember so does remembering tiny bits and pieces even matter to the inevitable.
When I was younger there were many excruciating eventful occurings that nearly killed me mentally and physically to the point destruction and self medicated contribution that led me spiraling down to a point of absolute nothingness where I had nor end or start in the blank spaced picture of my life span that I did not know how to start and for a deadly time in years i was spellbound in the loss of my self where I could not for years find the key to unlock the thousands of doors I wanted so badly to open.
When I did finally have the strength to find that some thing I was looking for with the help of strong inspirational figures I looked fondly and depressive upon such as persons that shared the same blood as i that in fact seemed to drag me down in the first place slowly rose me even higher than before to open the doors I had so relentlessly dreamt of aforetime to say in all pleasure finally I was happy.
The one figure that I love so dearly to this day even though dwelling in my teenage years trying to be an independent individual he has been someone I look up to in the most beautiful way a human could be seen for through all the darkness he was always a candlelight through thick and thin guiding the way.
He never kept anything from me instead of putting an amorous red x on all the curiosity's in the world he gave me an immense amount of knowledge from all he learned when he was young and the mistakes he made he gave me not only stories but crucial judgment and individuality to be and decide who I am in this world and I could ask for nothing more.
indeed i was built up by darkness and truthfully in all the best ways and amazingly if I could go back I would not change a thing for I believe from what I am now looking towards my future I am here I am now and with integrity and life I can conquer anything.
When I was younger there were many excruciating eventful occurings that nearly killed me mentally and physically to the point destruction and self medicated contribution that led me spiraling down to a point of absolute nothingness where I had nor end or start in the blank spaced picture of my life span that I did not know how to start and for a deadly time in years i was spellbound in the loss of my self where I could not for years find the key to unlock the thousands of doors I wanted so badly to open.
When I did finally have the strength to find that some thing I was looking for with the help of strong inspirational figures I looked fondly and depressive upon such as persons that shared the same blood as i that in fact seemed to drag me down in the first place slowly rose me even higher than before to open the doors I had so relentlessly dreamt of aforetime to say in all pleasure finally I was happy.
The one figure that I love so dearly to this day even though dwelling in my teenage years trying to be an independent individual he has been someone I look up to in the most beautiful way a human could be seen for through all the darkness he was always a candlelight through thick and thin guiding the way.
He never kept anything from me instead of putting an amorous red x on all the curiosity's in the world he gave me an immense amount of knowledge from all he learned when he was young and the mistakes he made he gave me not only stories but crucial judgment and individuality to be and decide who I am in this world and I could ask for nothing more.
indeed i was built up by darkness and truthfully in all the best ways and amazingly if I could go back I would not change a thing for I believe from what I am now looking towards my future I am here I am now and with integrity and life I can conquer anything.